This Day…

 Have you ever dreaded a date on the calendar? I mean when you look at the calendar on your desk and that particular day just seems to glare at you, mock you, and laugh at the hour of its arrival. It is almost as if an audible voice taunts “you cannot escape my coming!” Oh, how pathetic I may seem to even openly confess this. I have to believe that I am not the only woman that has felt this way! There must be other’s…there has too. If not than I am left to ponder exactly how alone I am in this.

My dreaded day this year is my birthday. May 20th. I have never felt like this in my whole entire life but something is seemingly different about this year. I have not accomplished all that I thought I would at my age. I find myself feeling as if I have to put one part of my life on hold in order to play catch up with the other half. I even heard someone say that the new middle age was 25. 25! That must put me in the category of…well, old! Can anyone relate?

I even lied about my birthday. I spoke of my new job in another post and part of my “side duties” is to keep up with everyone’s birthday. I post a little flyer by the sign out board we have and try to make it colorful and fun. Everyone really likes it because on the bottom of the flyer it always reads “Celebration will take place on the 3rd Wednesday of the month with donuts!” So, naturally one of the employees inquired about the empty wall where I post the flyer. He left in disbelief that there was no birthday’s this month. I went along confirming that there was no birthday’s this month. It was very disappointing because birthdays mean donuts! Silly I know.

I love how God talks to us in the midst of our silliness. If I continue to look behind me and focus on what I have not done then I miss what He has for me in the future. If I focus on the things that I “wish I had done” I don’t notice the things that God has done for me now, in the present. I quickly realized that I was allowing what I thought I should have accomplished to define me. I was measuring myself and my worth by worldly standards.  My accomplishments or success do not define me and the same goes for my mess ups and failures. I shook my head in disbelief that I allowed these asinine thoughts to invade my mind. I did not pay attention to what I was thinking and they slipped right on in. I didn’t take hold of my feelings when I first felt them and how quickly they led me to places in my mind that I did not want to go.

At the end of my life the only thing that really matters is who I allow to define me and that is Jesus Christ. I want my every being to resemble Him. At the end of my life it doesn’t matter the material wealth or possessions that I have acquired or what kind of title I carry in front of my name. At the end of my life I want only this to be said of me…

My Wife…

My Mother…

My Daughter…

My Sister…

My Friend…

She followed Jesus with all of her heart.

My friends, at the end of the day that is all that matters.

Lord, Thank You for every year you allow me to celebrate the day of my birth. I will celebrate each day because it is a gift from You. In Jesus Name, Amen.

 

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My sheep listen to my voice…

My sheep listen to my voice….

My sheep listen to my voice…

John 10:26-28

New Living Translation (NLT)

“26 But you don’t believe me because you are not my sheep. 27 My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me. 28 I give them eternal life, and they will never perish. No one can snatch them away from me,” (emphasis mine)

Part of this verse rang loud in my mind one day a few months ago. Something happened that I have not been able to forget. I think of it often and I am ever so amazed at how God teaches me Truths every day. This particular teaching was more of a reminder, one that I desperately needed.

I started a new job a few months ago. I have been looking and applying for about a year.  Needless to say the new job was a blessing and a relief. This particular office is set up in such a way that once you walk through the front door you are standing in front a receptionist desk; I sit at a desk toward her left. Toward my right is an office that belongs to one of my boss’(let’s call him boss #1)  and directly across the hall is an office that belongs to another one of my boss’(let’s call him boss #2). Now if you can imagine the set up one day early in the work day and my first week on the job one of my boss’ called my name. I immediately rose from my desk and walk into boss #2’s office and asked, “Did you call me?” His reply was “No” and the other boss (boss #1) called out “I did.” I responded, “In time I will get to know the difference in your voices” and I have.

Later that day I thought about what took place earlier and how I sometimes, ok, MOST of the time struggle to discern the voice of God. How even now that I am working again I don’t seem to spend as much time with Him as I want to…as I NEED too! This is why many times I struggle hearing the voice of God. I hear a voice calling out to me (as my boss did) and I enter the wrong office. The problem with that is the person’s office I enter may not be as kind as boss #2 and say “It wasn’t me who called you.” I take this not as just a reminder but also a warning.

The more I spend time in this job that God gave me the more I recognize people’s voices, there character, and their personalities. It is part of spending time with people. It goes the same for spending time with God. I need for my soul’s sake to be able to discern the voice of my God because if I don’t recognize His voice that is when I can be led astray. “My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they FOLLOW me.” My favorite part of this is a threefold promise. If we know His voice and listen to His voice we have eternal life, will not perish and NOONE can snatch of from Him. NOONE! Praise God!

My question for you is a simple one…

Do you follow a voice that you do not recognize? You’re not sure? If we don’t spend time with God and learn to recognize His voice then most likely we won’t follow Him either. Beloved, spend time with God today, don’t delay. He will never lead you astray!